March 12, 2015

I changed the morning. One thing that I used to do that I really enjoyed, was oil pulling. It takes 20 minutes and I would do it first thing in the morning. The effects are marvelous. Coconut oil is delicious but sesame oil is great for a second pull before lunch. The concept is simple, take a spoon full of oil and swish it in your mouth for 20 minutes 1-3 times a day. Pulling out bacteria, collecting the bits of grossness in the mouth and on the tongue, cleaning the teeth, strengthening the gums and infusing the body with oil essentials.

After my oil pulling, I made smoothies and drank mine before doing a 15 minute meditation. Clem curled up on my lap and purred for the duration of my meditation. It was a struggle since I hadn’t done it for so long but I was gentle with myself and brought it back to the breath and the space between my many thoughts. This ended with a tingling sensation in my ears. I decided to bring my Tara deity figure to the office with me as an added reminder of my goals for myself.

Reflecting on the past… yesterday I had decided to take one of the citalopram antidepressant pills that my doctor prescribed. I have been on antidepressants before but it had been quite awhile. This one derailed me for the majority of the day. It wasn’t just the nausea, dry mouth, fast heart rate, but it was the confusion, excitement for no reason, worry, increased anxiety and sudden sleepiness that really got me. I wanted to try to follow what my doctor had suggested but I found myself thinking ‘I have already tried this path, and it didn’t work..remember?’. I had to relax after work and let the drug leave my system, it wasn’t until around 9:30pm that I started to feel like myself again.

So today, I am listening to what I think might help. That is, oil pulling, meditation, my homeopathic mixture, tea, fruit, a healthy lunch, gym after work, art and reading tonight. Comparably, that sounds absolutely perfect.